Trips Around the Sun

I was sitting in my hammock chair with my feet up, looking up at the stars, the hammock swinging gently in the breeze, as I contemplated the meaning of my life; my shortcomings, my accomplishments and all points in between.
My thought process is atypical. Many times, whether my thoughts are positive, negative, angry, confused or questioning, I will suddenly get a random thought (hint?) that does not seem to pertain to the subject at hand and seems to come out of nowhere. I know that it is impossible for a thought to come out of nowhere, so I have to process this and wait for the “hint” that I know will soon follow before I can continue.
I will soon be starting my 55th trip around the sun… This means that more than half of my life is over (because I don’t want to live much past 100) and I was having human thoughts; thinking that I now have less time left to “make my mark.”
“Mark on what and why is this important?”
Well paska, I thought! Who said that and where did it come from? Okay, wait for it because you know you will get a hint…
“Why do humans think that anything they do will leave any kind of Mark?”
Okay, so that I wasn’t expecting!
“You are less than a blip on the evolutionary scale of the universe. What kind of “Mark” can a blip leave?”
Wow, that’s pretty harsh! Why so mean?
There had to be a reason for this thought “outburst,” so, it was time to investigate a possible new perspective.

  • They say our universe is between 13 to 14 billion years old, so for the sake of arguments, let’s just say the universe is 13 billion years old.

  • Our beautiful planet Earth is 4.5 billion years old and that represents 34.6153% of the universes’ 13 billion year existence.

  • The dinosaur era last 180 million years. The whole dinosaur era represents only 1.38% of the universes’ 13 billion year existence.

  • Humans fared even worse. We are Homo sapiens sapiens, the last survivors of the genus Homo; the earliest documented members of the genus Homo are Homo habilis, which evolved around 2.3 million years ago. The human era is less than 0.02% of universes’ 13 billion year existence and not even a blip.

Leaving “your mark” only counts on a human scale, which is but a blip in the existence and evolution of the universe and even on our own planet. Leaving a “mark” means absolutely nothing in the grand scheme of things. Does this mean it is all for naught? Is there no reason to strive to leave a mark?
“There is always reason to strive for the positive, as long as you keep things in perspective.”